Tuesday, April 21, 2009 . 9:08 PM
Today is tue.sec 4s step down.
elvina is e new president.
heng huat is e new vice.
yingxiang is secretary.
kilice is publicity head.
im management head(sk).
*sk= saikang.
tts not e point.
i didnt wan to haf any jobs or whatever u call it in the first place.
dislik responsibility.
CCA councilor for canoeing is enuff for me.
n the worst part is.
im not even sure if im gonna stay in yeah council.
then they wud haf to take e trouble to appoint another person for the sk job.
though its not much trouble.
but i'll still feel bad for them to take e trouble.
my sch shoes got holes underneath
spoiling my socks too.
wanted to buy shoes for three days le.
sunshine de store darn early close...
sian.
dunno how to describe how im feeling rite now.
well. im going to release my stress by crapping.
do u noe?
There are times tt i get darn angry cause of u tt i feel lik killing someone?
of course u dunno. tts a rheotorical question. wow.
e prob between us is just cause of me.
sometimes im paranoid. lets just say always.
anyway its my fault. im often just too retarded.
Ugly too. perhaps. dno to other ppl, but to me, yes.
There are times i wud lik to bash e mirror.
n i dunno what stop me from doing so.
i prefer looking at myself without specs.
i dun look tt ugly when i can't c my face clearly.
im good at nth. n all tis are truly what i tink of myself. even if it may not seem so to some.
i dun look lik those wif low self confidence i tink. cause i always joke. n im not good at joking too.
i haf e habit to reflect abt what i do. tts when im at home.
i tink a little too much sometimes.
i wonder abt too many stuff.
what's e meaning in life actually?
i do not noe.
currently. as of tis moment, its only to repay e debts i own my parents. though normally i dun really respect them tt much.
before today, there is another reason for living, which i shall not elaborate.
also. canoeing is an important part of my life.
i owned mr alfred lim lots. though i dun tink many of us as students feel tt he's a nice teacher.
he is actually. i smths tink abt what i'll be doing if i didnt join canoeing/db.
i will be still slacking in sci team mayb.
though tis cca takes up most of my time.
however, having less time for me means not to haf to let my thoughts run n at least to haf some sort of system in my life.
since i noe i dun care so much abt stupid stuff when im busy.
i noe tt tis is irrelevant to anything.
but i dun really care.
blogging means to write whatever u tink(at least i tink tt way)
normally i wud control myself to not to write abt my thoughts.
but now i just dun care. or mayb its just today(tonight actually)
not tt happy.
but no1 cares though.
at least she dun.
at least i dun tink she cares.
hu's e she? My mum ah.
i dun really noe what to type in already.
im just a ugly retard. n a joker perhaps.
u're (un)lucky tt u actually get to read this post.
its nth much but hu cares.
bye.
有些东西一旦失去了，就无法再次拥有了。
这不是我想要的，但是，已没有选择了。
虽不愿意，但我得尊重你的决定。
人生无常，分离总是难免的。
完了。